⧖III

 

Do not bury your head in your hands. Nothing is permanent. even tattoos are an illusion.

Change perspective: S.M.I.2L.E.= A Term coined by Timothy Leary:

S.M.I2.LE. ^× Space Migration, Intelligence Increase

and Life Extension.

Change behavior: LAUGH.

"Consider laughter: it is the highest emotion, for it can contain any of the others from ecstasy to grief. It has no opposite. Crying is merely an underdeveloped form of it which cleanses the eyes and summons assistance to infants. Laughter is the only tenable attitude in a universe which is a joke played upon itself.

The trick is to see that joke played out even in the neutral and ghastly events which surround one. It is not for us to question the universe's apparent lack of taste. Seek the emotion of laughter at what delights and amuses, seek it in whatever is neutral or meaningless, seek it even in what is horrific and revolting. Though it may be forced at first, one can learn to smile inwardly at all things."

Peter J. Carroll, Liber Null & Psychonaut (Red Wheel/Weiser pg17)

Dr. Kataria told his trainees that laughter yoga “is based upon the scientific fact that, even if you laugh for the sake of laughing, even if you are pretend laughing, your body cannot tell the difference.”

Traditional absurdists usually reject both physical and philosophical suicide as the recommended response to the absurd, usually with the argument that both these responses constitute some form of escape that fails to face the absurd for what it is. Despite the gravity and inevitability of the absurd, they recommend that we should face it directly, i.e. not escape from it by retreating into the illusion of false hope or by ending one's life.

“Camusian Absurdism”-Advancing a message of lucidity, resilience and emancipation in the face of the absurdity of life, it encourages people to create their own meanings through personal choices and commitments, and to embrace their freedom to the fullest. Because he affirms that, even in the absurd, there is room for passion and rebellion; and although the Universe may be indifferent to our search for meaning, this search is in itself meaningful.

"Laughter is the only tenable attitude in a universe which is a joke played on itself." ~ Peter J. Carroll

“Journey to Ixtlan”

“I am going to teach you how to set up dreaming.”

“You must start by doing something very simple,” he said. “Tonight in your dreams you must look at your hands.” I laughed out loud. His tone was so factual that it was as if he were telling me to do something commonplace. “Why do you laugh?” he asked with surprise. “How can I look at my hands in my dreams?”..

“Very simple, focus your eyes on them just like this.” He bent his head forward and stared at his hands with his mouth open. His gesture was so comical that I had to laugh. “Seriously, how can you expect me to do that?” I asked “The way I’ve told you,” he snapped. “You can, of course, look at whatever you goddamn please…

…I asked him to give me some pointers. “There aren’t any pointers,” he said. “Just look at your hands.”

“When they begin to change shape you must move your sight away from them and pick something else, and then look at your hands again. It takes a long time to perfect this technique.”

Week Six: The Bardos of Chapel Perilous

 "One, two, three, he is a speedball mannequin

One, two, three, he can't move to stand still"

Saturn's Day: Looking on one tab an i ching alternative, another tab chod damaru drums, then read this on a seemingly unrelated web page in my browser: "In the sewers, Bill performs the "Ritual of Chüd" in an attempt to face It in the Macroverse, the alternate universe where It is from, where he meets the monster's antithesis, Maturin, an ancient turtle that created the universe. "

 

Patient "X" and Week Five c4-c8

 

Something interesting I picked up on: Each week I begin activities of the following week early. As if anticipating what comes next. For instance at the end of a C6 weekend I started C7 designs. At the end of C7 work I started C8 designs. (zine)

also, C4 task #1 ritual: Make a new friend: A. M.

C4 Task #1:

1. Creativity.

2. Intelligence

3. Optimism
4. Sense of humor (Laughter Yogi lol)

This song started off my week of work in the 8CB. Spartan boys lied, cheated, and stole and got rewarded for it. Beaten if caught. Boyhood psychology.  Don't write a check your spirit can't cash.  

Detached manipulator/Psychopath

Hypersigil notes:

Autodidact

Absurd objectivist laughter yogi?

Writing assignment #1

C4 Attraction criteria checklist:

1. Intelligence

2. Self Expression

3. Courage

4. Able to achieve orgasm with or without a partner

5. Nurturing

Writing assignment #2:

C8 out of body experiences:

Around sixteen years of age, I experienced an out of body situation. After being in my room alone listening to music, I suddenly found myself in another area. My body was on its back laying on some sort of table or surface. A bright light poured over me from above. To my left and right sides, two beings stood looking down at me. All appeared mono-scale. The faces of the beings seemed masked, obscuring any facial features but large dark eye areas. I tried to move but only my head could tilt. Down at my toes I could see hundreds of black and yellow banana spiders crawling from feet upward. I felt fear and panic but this only resulted in me regaining consciousness in my current body here on Earth. I woke up in a hospital bed with my mother sitting next to me and my father just coming into the curtained room. As for what they reported happened to me, I leave that in the charts of Patient "X". 

Conclusion shared: "The Black Rite This rite consists of the forceful entry of a spirit into the body of an already inhabited being. It is both dangerous and unreliable and used only in certain peculiar and desperate situations. It will sometimes result in there being a double life force in one body, if the invading spirit fails to displace the occupant. In this case the victim will seem to have gone mad. In any case the memory of the taken-over being remains, and the invading-being will have to work through this. Of this rite I have been advised to say no more. . . ."

Living Without a Self Image

 It went ok until I tried telling a story about Grandpa and using a wrench to loosen a hose outside. The exterminator, Michael, told me "wrong way". I turned the other direction like he commented loosening the hose. Water started pouring out the top of the hose onto my footwear. It looked good to appear without an image after reading that section in the book. 

Noise Unit "Æ"

almost complete. This morning: Raymond Watts and PIG----}Schwein---}Beefcake koba---}organzola. This afternoon: The thought that every musician should own a noise unit. The I thought, maybe Noise Unit a band I heard about. = Rhys and Bill from FLA. Last album featuring Raymond Watts. Noise Unit. 

The Dirty signal for my baritone lacks a single pedal for album completion. A Zvex Machine. 

Mechnical Guilt vs. Spontaneous Guilt. 

LDRSHIP External vs. LDRSHIP Internal

1.)Create a community project: The Black Lodge 237 IMM ICS

2.)Befriend highly social types: 

3.) Explore Social or "folk" art:

Tagging, monikers, graffiti, geocaching, letterboxing, urban exploration or U.E., photography, video art, and other social art attracts my interest. Folk Music: Master Musicians of Jajouka and Alash Ensemble Tuvan Throat Singing.

4.) Research topographical origins of culture: Jailhouse rock/ 52 blocks. Berimbau capoeira. Afrikan diaspora. Slave martial arts.

5.)Initiate an Artists' Organization: The OMM Cult. One Man Metal.

6.) Confess your depth by becoming deep enough to be shallow: Play games like a child. Watch Gameshows.

7.) Go to more parties

Woke up thinking of being in a light place. White Void. Bill Rieflin synchronicity. An order contacted me today. Socio-Circuit. 4 and card 8= white.