Saturday, February 24, 2024

The Thirteenth Turn

 "You don't belong to you. You belong to the Universe and you're here to serve."-Buckminster Fuller

greg anderson from SunnO))) "[Life Metal is] sort of a personal reflection of my life as well. Having children and being a father has really changed me in a lot of ways—and for the better in some ways—but I have a different outlook on things now. Trying to be selfless in my life is important, and that's changed me and changed my mood and how I'm thinking about music and how I'm writing at the moment."

"Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.

Talent will not:
Nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent
Genius will not:
Unrewarded genius is almost a proverb
Education will not:
The world is full of educated derelicts

Persistence and Determination alone are omnipotent"-Israel Regardie

Day Six of my 56 day journey. Eight weeks. Basic training for The Lodge. Using the Eight Circuit Brain book by Antero Alli as a guide. A requirement for membership. 

Colors: "Another possibility is cheap, easy outfits. It’s accessible to everyone who’s willing to make the investment for a patch. That’s why, in the beginning, industrial [style] was old camo and clothing, and it didn’t matter if it got dirty. Actually, being dirty was part of the function. This time, it’s a leather jacket or a denim vest. Slice off the sleeves, put a patch on it, and then decorate it how you wish with your own particulars. It gives you instant recognition and a very easy form of entry into groups, so that you see it and know that these people are probably going to have very similar thoughts to you. " OTTT Mission State-Meant

"Brain change willed is as close to magick as we're going to get and let's us bypass the middle classes tendency to ingest drugs (alcohol) to escape present and future time by regressing and living in the great unwashed mires of the status quo."- Angel Tech

"In Australia and New Zealand, tall poppy syndrome refers to successful people being criticised. This occurs when their peers believe they are too successful, or are bragging about their success.[1][2] Intense scrutiny and criticism of such a person is termed as "cutting down the tall poppy"."

Spit,Blood.  and Ov:




Spit and Blood- Eat Right for your Type. Bloodline of the Gods by Nick Redfern, 

Ov: Cultivating Female Sexual Energy and Cultivating Male Sexual Energy by Mantak Chia, 

64 I ching sigil forms to be used with the alphabet of desire: 


Note of January 6, 1989 showing
the 64 hexagrams in the von Franz style,
in the arrangement discovered by S. H. Cullinane

" from ""

Schedule: M-F Archetype work week. Sat-Sun rest and fun. 

I started Laughter Yoga by joining a club and doing it for thirty minutes daily. When my internet is not stable I do it alone. Tiphareth is Laughter. 

I have been taking a throat singing course by Jerry Walsh over at the didgeproject website. It has been going very well. My inspiration has been Atilla Csihar and his solo project Void ov Voices. Also Diamanda Galas. I have stopped smoking cigarettes and my lung capacity is improving due to the laughter yoga and singing course. "Life Metal". 

The thirteenth turn is a reference to a noose. The throat and neck is the location for Daath, Knowledge and Expression. I learned in one of my books that this point is also the source of lucid dreaming. Singing has helped me activate this Vishuddha chakra and confront my self conscious metaprogramming regard this form of expression. 

In Michelle Belanger's Psychic Vampire Codex, there are three types in the caste system: The Warriors, The Priests, and The Counselors. I happen to be a Priest which is described as being the least connected with the body. Along with a physical fitness regimen (according to somatotype), I have decided to engage the body in physical expression: Dance. I am taking an eight week course on Maori Kapa Haka.  Along with this medium of physical expression I have been doing physical therapy exercises and back yoga for my ailments. 

As for writing, I have taken up writing poetry. I am inspired by Rimbaud's Letter to the Seer which is the title of my poetry book. Who knows, maybe I will generate some lyrical content. 

Both Dr. Glasser (Reality therapy) and Gurdjieff talk about Doing, Thinking, and Feeling. 

My decision to stick with this eight week plan is an attempt to engage all three of these brains. 

I recently had a visit from a drunken uncle violence that left me recoiling in horror and determined to seek a new direction. For most of my life I have been avoiding feelings through use of drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes. Seeing as how my enneagram type is based on the heart center, I discovered I was running away from growth and integration. Fear of experiencing these feelings and emotions had enslaved me into a self destructive pattern. I have decided that Fear, Anger, and Sadness (the negative trio of emotions) had been running my life long enough. Ironically, Fear would not define me but actually it would be a part of my new magical motto for my current work: Fear Liath (Grey Man)

My emotional territorial circuit needs conditioning and if at all possible, re-imprinting. This course of work is an attempt to do something about it. 

I have started a collaboration with my friend Nathan. I am painting a triptych for his band's album. The three paintings represent Fear, Anger, and Sadness. Part of a anti-hero journey in three acts. 

My partner has discovered the joy of enjoying her own music gear devices. The house has been resonating with experimentation. The energy of Spring is upon us. 

Wednesday, February 7, 2024



"Take a card, any card. In most cases he will not suspect its extraneous origin. that is the run of the mill newspaper reader who receives the scrambled message uncritically and assumes that it reflects his own opinions independently arrived at. On the other other hand, the subject may recognise or suspect the extraneous origins of voices that are literally hatching out in his head. Then we have a classic syndrome of paranoid psychosis. Subject hears voices. Anyone can be made to hear voices with scrambling techniques."
2024 e.v.
"To achieve independence from alien domination and to consolidate revolutionary gains, five steps are necessary: Proclaim a new era and set up a new calendar; Replace alien language; Destroy or neutralize alien Gods; Destroy alien machinery of governmental control; Take wealth and land from individual aliens" 
Burroughs from Electronic Revolution and The Revised Boy Scout Manual


Technofeudalism. The slang consists of e-prime and pidgin language. I and I. Iyaric dread talk. 
Bob Beckwith:AMANDA:Ice Cube Neutrino Observatory. Epsilon Bootes. Botis. 

I am the kid scared by the dogs agression. I am the dog that lashes out. I am the computer. GIGO. 

Monday, December 18, 2023


 Past lives. Photons. Kether. Ego-Death. Bardos. Altered States of Consciousness. Traveling space. Looking for an assignment. 

Currently reading Control Theory by Glasser. Just finshed reading Michael Talbot's book on Past Lives. I tried one of the techniques and it worked. Talbot mentions that when you do make contact more will come up sometimes rapidly. That was what transpired with me. I have always suspected reincarnation as an answer to many questions but it was this book that got me on board with a firm conviction. Been here done that came to mind last night when falling asleep. The responsibility of owning not one but the reverberant echoes of many lives in the past explains many of my living motivations.  In the film Dark City a Doctor concocts a syringe of liquid that contains the memories of the unknowing patients future mind. Each night they are reset and experimented on. The concoction of personality details is something running through my veins. Traditions ghost walks my path. 

"Be sober, be vigilant, because your adversary the devil walketh about as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour."

1 peter 5:8

They make warnings about The Devil. Self reflection is his gift to those that will use it and stare into the abyss. "Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.

Friedrich Nietzsche"

There is a phrase called navel gazing for too intense of internal speculation. Another excuse not to look within for all the things you hate. Some of these hates have been going on for lifetimes. The universe feeds you clues all the while for you to become conscious of it and the odds that you will recognize it and act are not good. Yet those who wage on this side of the game win big if they are right. 

Every man and every woman is a star. You are a being of light. No matter your predilection for the Dark. The game was initiated by the light and is the source of its programming. To choose a side in this game is to serve the Light or the Dark. Some walk the path of both. The Grey Man is united in Adam Qadmon and can articulate as Lord of the Four Quarters. The concept of the Grey Man was introduced to me by a Special Forces soldier. The Four Quarters are represented by the Four Archetypes : King, Warrior, Magician, and Lover. According to Toni Wolff, the feminine archetypes are :


  • Mother (and spouse),Queen
  • Amazon,Warrior
  • Hetaira (companion, lover, wife, friend),
  • Medial woman, priestess.


NUIT is freckled with light emitting constellations. In the night these patterns represent more than that. Secrets are kept amid the Heavens and there are those who will be shown the way, but only a few. It is the time of the Night Sky and we are photons moving in space. 

Starlight is best. Focus on starlight illuminating from your feet and slowly moving up, brightening your body cavities, until it finally arrives at your head. From there, imagine bright warm starlight coming down from the center top of the head and moving into the body from this point. When it reaches the center or your core, it touches like an arc and the internal light is spiraling. Waves of healing energy will pulsate through you. As you continue to breathe it is like wind on a fire and results in more radiation. Psycho-holic slag is turning white hot and coming off in fragments and slowly burning offf on the edges of your body cavities. 

Welcome to planet Motherfucker.