The Bardos

Two days ago I took some psilocybin and enjoyed a rather intensely pleasurable experience. I had prepared by reading The Psychedelic Experience (a manual based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead) several weeks prior. Allowing this time to adjust and ingest the information contained in the book really set the experience off right when I was finally ready. My son was back home visiting his mother which left the home open for use. The Tibetan model that surrounds the corruption of the faculties at the time of death or ego loss, remains with heavy influence upon me. This is a recent article that proved enriching: The Bardos that I had read about corresponded quite well with the entire session. I was able to recognize the various hallucinations and refer to them with the manual. Overall, my desire to control the experience was to a much more significant degree suspended. The familiarity with scenes and mental processes provided the comfort necessary to retreat into further exploration. The disposition and overall mood was confident and reassuring. Flowing in and out of alternating modes of perceptual distortion, I felt at ease and able to reflect on the nature of mental oscillations. I began listening to the Heart Sutra and picking up on the internal rhythms that fell into synch from time to time with the waves of effect. An hour in I was perceiving what I considered to be the processes of my autonomic nervous system. Specifically entertaining was the heart rate and breathing rhythm. It became the center of preoccupation for some time. What little anxiety remained was countered by pacing out my breaths and walking. I performed my Liber Resh at dusk and had some particularly exaggerated effects that were great. I performed the adoration facing the western horizon and shut my eyes. I coordinated the breath and concentrated on the visualization of being "within the barque". Brilliant glowing lights filled the closed field of vision and brightened vibrantly as I spoke. At one particular moment I recollect trying to decode a language internally and thinking "this is molecular information". Internally guiding your system away from the ego is a challenge. The desire to control is overwhelming and often pulls like an angry child. I felt some progress with this trip and came away with something.-pronounced dead on arrival-. It was spiritual for me and the correlations between the Bardos and this journey were tandem thus delivering me at ego loss and conjuring an approach to what lies within the Godhead.

Ogun

"Concerning the Image of the Deity. Let there be an image of the Deity; first because in meditation there is mindfulness induced thereby; and second because a certain power enters and inhabits it by virtue of the ceremonies; or so it is said, and We deny it not. Let this image be the most beautiful and perfect which the devotee is able to procure; or if he be able to paint or to carve the same, it is all the better. As for Deities with whose nature no Image is compatible, let them be worshipped in an empty shrine. Such are Brahma, and Allah. Also some postcaptivity conceptions of Jehovah."-Liber Astarte Ogun is the Orisha that spoke out to me. I am consulting Liber Astarte from the Equinox and following it's basis of instruction. This is the image that was collaged for this unique purpose. I will be constructing a shrine this week and commence experimentation with Devotion. Protecting ritual elements from the profane is a challenge. The objective is to render the moment sacred. Surprisingly, I over looked the opportunity to integrate a component of the eight circuit model into the artistic imagery. Contemplation upon this missing component is satisfactory however. The Anal-Emotional Territorial Circuit. Observe a connection with the rum and alcohol intoxication with this Deity. Devotion is a an active engagement of mythos that shapes the course of behavior and thought. If conducted with sincerity. It is software, nothing more. Memes and culture are to be investigated for use and discarded minus the benefits. "It is like eating fish.Eat the flesh and toss out the bones."

Parts and proportions

"Technologic is the likeliest of candidates. Observe and report are the orders. Sources of information come from distant lands where interruptions are few and time space is immeasurable. Following a flux is a tragic attempt for anyone who is unaware of the activity." Currently hosting two Marmorkrebs. One small emily's garden hydroponic system. I am without the duckweed at this time. Looking to harvest a specific variety of duckweed. As of yet, I have not deduced the variety. More research is necessary. We are still awaiting seeds for the emily's garden.Next month I will be purchasing a worm composter. It will generate the compost tea for the small herbs in the emily's garden. A substitute for traditional chemical additives used with hydroponic systems. I allowed my website to expire. I am not entirely certain as to why I have withdrawn so much. Could it be possible to withdraw out of respect? It is not the intent to cast the term abandonment at the relationships that I have shelved. So much is evolutionary in my terms for personal association,they do not hold fast. Quickly they evolve and often out grow the person responsible for their summoning. The occult and buddhism suggest large territories for the expansion of internal and external symbolism(model of hierarchical complexity). General semantics is a promising avenue for non-aristotelian thinking.