Short and concise

I turned 40 with interests churning, reading a lot. 

Celebrated with Liber Astarte.

 I need a portable cd player and Remee Lucid Dreaming Mask. Time set to 3:33 a.m.

"This hour, spanning from 2 am to 3 am, is thought to be a time when the veil separating our dimension from the next is at its thinnest.

Consequently, it’s suggested that darker entities and rituals are most active during this hour, capitalizing on the thin barrier between worlds."

I have been keeping a dream journal. I am somewhat better about lucidity in dreams. The current opportunitity for success is dream intention for the moment lucidity does arrive. I have some dark ideas. 

I read Mantak Chia's Darkness Technology book. It was good but lacked a meditation in it. Later on I found a suitable meditation in this book:

 I found this book to be very refreshing and enjoyable. Theistic Satanism, or as Brother Nero calls it, Traditional Satanism, crushes the atheistic model. Here is why: To not be able to imagine an intelligence greater to your own is a limiting point of view. Maybe you become a Noble Animal but that is where you end. Intelligent Design welcomes the Ubermensch, or Overman. Life affirming, and creative. 

"Walter Kaufmann wrote that Nietzsche "celebrates the Greeks who, facing up to the terrors of nature and history, did not seek refuge in "a Buddhistic negation of the will," as Schopenhauer did, but instead created tragedies in which life is affirmed as beautiful in spite of everything."^[2][3] Schopenhauer’s negation of the will was a saying "no" to life and to the world, which he judged to be a scene of pain and evil. "[D]irectly against Schopenhauer’s place as the ultimate nay-sayer to life, Nietzsche positioned himself as the ultimate yes-sayer…."^[4] Nietzsche's affirmation of life's pain and evil, in opposition to Schopenhauer, resulted from an overflow of life.^[5] Schopenhauer's advocacy of self-denial and negation of life was, according to Nietzsche, very harmful.^[6] For his entire mature life, Nietzsche was concerned with the damage that he thought resulted from Schopenhauerian disgust with life and turning against the world.""

We imagine a dream. Then as Magickians, we manifest it. Going back as far as I can remember, there has been a influence, no matter how subtle, guiding me back to the source. 

These are some books I recommend that are short and concise. 

Dead Currents

 The Aeon of Horus and the Kali Yuga run concurrent for me. I just finished reading The Secret History of The World by Mark Booth. It was a fun read but I found a few things I disagreed with. One was the theory that extraterrestrials are encompassed in the secret teachings of secret societies. Mark Booth claims that this is not the case. He doesn't digress into psychology about it either, which I liked.

Mind before matter was one central teaching theme that remained constant throughout the book. The idea that the mind precedes matter and that matter is condensed thought is intriguing. There are scientific experiments further solidifying this stance. He doesn't spare the cult of science either. He cites numerous examples of people in history, that changed the course of things, had been influenced by the occult. 

Altered states of consciousness are also addressed in terms of initiations. 

 The mineral, the vegetable, and the animal were touched upon. The vegetable body is the vehicle of the astral. Strangely, I feel less shock decapitating a chicken, than I do cutting a vegetable. That being said I feel a connection to an astral dimension. The chakras are a part of that as well as kundalini. 

My book on Astral Projection arrived and I am starting on my birthday. I have been working on a dream book in the mean time. So far I have made some progress recalling and coming to lucidity. I ordered  books on Remote Viewing and Gurdjieff. Ouspensky is boring and tedious. I had to look for another source. I also got Pole Shift by White so I could better understand what Jaz Coleman believes to be a coming catastrophe. 

I have awakened kundalini and the result was a blockage and buldging disc. I have a physical therapist I am working with and I believe the recording process will help relieve the situation. My album I am recording has 22 tracks. I half way there, halfway up the spine. Exactly where my pain is. 

از جمادی مُردم و نامی شدم وز نما مُردم به حیوان برزدم مُردم از حیوانی و آدم شدم پس چه ترسم کی ز مردن کم شدم؟ حملهٔ دیگر بمیرم از بشر تا برآرم از ملائک بال و پر وز ملک هم بایدم جستن ز جو کل شیء هالک الا وجهه بار دیگر از ملک پران شوم آنچ اندر وهم ناید آن شوم پس عدم گردم عدم چون ارغنون گویدم که انا الیه راجعون

I died to the mineral state and became a plant, I died to the vegetal state and reached animality, I died to the animal state and became a man, Then what should I fear? I have never become less from dying. At the next charge (forward) I will die to human nature, So that I may lift up (my) head and wings (and soar) among the angels, And I must (also) jump from the river of (the state of) the angel, Everything perishes except His Face, Once again I will become sacrificed from (the state of) the angel, I will become that which cannot come into the imagination, Then I will become non-existent; non-existence says to me (in tones) like an organ, Truly, to Him is our return.

-Rumi. This is a testing ground for further incarnation up the spectrum. Music and poetry will get you there.  "One day while in a public bath Rumi looked at himself with pity and said, ' I have never felt embarrassed by anyone before except that now that I see how much my body has become thin. I understand its language and what it is telling me about its situation, what it was hiding and expressing with these complaints ' You are giving me no rest, not even a whole day or a whole night so that I can gather my strength and help you bear the burden.' What could I say? MY peace of mind rests on the fatigue I impose on my body. Should I get one moment of peace, my soul would not."

I have become thin from fasting. My legs are fatigued. I need to restore health and heal. 

Dead Currents run through these veins. 

Holding keys to secrets well hidden. 

To have the courage to open the door and peer through into illumination, is to seek higher faculties. 

Om Nama Shivaya.

The days when I was an Aghori. 

The days when I was a Sufi. 

 

almost twelve years.

 It's August 2023 and I am making preparations for my 40th birthday. It has been about twelve years since I picked up a copy of Gems of the Equinox and began practicing my Thelema. It has been an incredible journey already. 2012 was the Galactic Alignment and the gateway for my consciousness. The Great Conjunction occured in 2020 marking a transition as well. 

In these years between 2012 and now, I have discovered much. 

• The Existence and Name of a praeterhuman intelligence known as My Holy Guardian Angel
• Saturnian magick and conspiracy
• How to summon and work with the Goetia, also their origins
• Became an Necromantic Exorcist and discovered the realm of the Dead
• Found the morpho-genetic resonance with ancestry
• Penetrated addiction and sobriety
• made peace with mood alteration and anti-psychiatry
• Found the Kali Yuga and the prophecy of the New Aeon
• Found the secret of Phamakos and the mysteries of Tradition
• Developed a personal practice of Thelema without the support of an organization

I did discover who the heir to the A∴A∴ system was: It was Motta's line through the Caretakers of Thelema. However I found out that the grade structure and curriculum weren't in line with the Kali Yuga. I found that I am a typical Kali Yuga man. Tradition has been corrupted for me. It only exists in fragments. I have sifted through these materials with a guiding intuition or force that I came to call My Holy Guardian Angel. 

I chose to follow this intuition instead of progressing through an order. I also have created a Lodge for doing this. The member picks the grade material to work with. Following breadcrumbs right into the oven. 

The Dark Ages are upon us again. 2024 has prophetic visions of nuclear events or catastrophe. Entropy is a motherfucker and Saturn reigns. 

Sometimes I read the enemy scripture tracts. Keeps me knowing what they are thinking. One of those authors is highlighting the significance of the return of Saturn. He only touches the surface but is aware of the elite's organizations that support Saturn's cause in America. It will be a good read. 

My Uncle Julio introduced me to the idea that there were ancient aliens in the 90's. He was a orphan, hard working immigrant, and I was baffled by the concept such a skeptic to religion held. I keenly remember that response he gave and thought that it was fascinating. Fast forward to 2000's and this information was going everywhere including the history channel. Zechariah Stitchen and others expanded upon the topic and it invited Hollywood to make some captivating cases of alien intervention (Prometheus).

Now I have watched the Senate briefing on U.A.P.'s and heard testimonial that there is recovered craft and non-human occupants. Some think it is another false flag. Like COVID or 9/11.  The Brookings report reveals that it has been a possible policy for the U.S. government to not confirm the presence of extraterrestrial life. Now it seems they want to change the story. 

I found John Lear and Bob Lazaar in my journeys. By now they can control alien craft and utilize it to shape public perceptions. Directed energy weapons are now being deployed. In 2024 there is the prediction of an event. This might be orchestrated by our own kind. Seldom do people question where these films like Oppenheimer and others get their funding.  These are films are intended to shift mass attention.  It would be an opportunity for the New World Order as they once called it. 

Also known as the 300, Bohemian Grove, and the World Economic Forum, these entities are thoroughly tracked by news sources like project censored. They are having trouble hiding even though they have gone international.  

"Don't try to tell me that some power can corrupt a person

You haven't had enough to know what it's like

You're only angry 'cause you wish you were in my position

Now nod your head because you know that I'm right, all right!" Nine Inch Nails Capital G

The thermo-nuclear fossil fuels era needs a culling according to experts. Dependency on fuel won't go away anytime soon so the amount of people to use it will. Nuclear wastelands in bio-zones declared unprofitable and too consumptive. These are potential targets. COVID was testing for a lock down. Not to mention a genocide. Know your caste and strategically align yourself with the rules of the game to survive. Survive what? Death?

Thelema taught me Death is not an option for me and hasn't been in past lives. I have made contact with non-human intelligence so I believe we are not alone. I learned of the fourth dimension and nuclear mysticism yet as of yet, cannot go there at will. I look forward to the upcoming year and the rest of this one. I still haven't got a good grasp of Hugh Everette III's work or the simulation argument.

I have plans for my birthday. The First is a three month journey. I bought a book called Mastering Astral Projection. A 90 day guide. I also have picked up my copy of Ingo Swanns Psychic Literacy. I am also interested in remote viewing techniques. The first place I want to go is the Abi of Urkesh. 

The Abi is not unlike Skinwalker Ranch. It is a door. 

Syria is not a good place to visit in person right now so it is my first target. Like Burton in Mecca only safer. 

I think I am going back to marmorkrebs. Our homestead is prosperous. Humans versus the Watchers. This turning point of the kardeshev scale. 

Six types of Gods. Choose your rhythm. 

 

Psychic Test 203

 A few years back I made the trip to Portugal to visit and see family. One afternoon with my Aunt Augusta and my Mother, we went to a monastery. The line going in was long and I had no idea what the place was about, I was along for the ride as they say. 

When we got in, we went through a few sections then went into the giftstore. Suddenly, I was reminded by thought of how Sir Richard Francis Burton was interested in the life of a Portuguese poet. I was perplexed because I couldn't remember the name of the Portuguese author, so I asked my Mother and Aunt if they knew of whom I could be talking about. My Aunt and Mother agreed it was probably Camões. I then  asked if I might find a translation of his writings and my Aunt glances on a shelf and sees one. 

I tell her thank you and I purchased the copy I have in my library today. We left the gift shop and descended a flight of stairs where stood before me, the tomb of Camões. I thought the instance so strange that I had my Mother take a photograph with me in front of the tomb. I have a psychic connection to Burton and Camões. I had been completely unaware that this monastery had any connection to the poet Camões. I had not read or even asked about the place nor were there any photos or descriptions around the building. 

Would this be synchronicity or coincidence? A message from the Earth Coincidence Control Office or E.C.C.O. as Lilly called it? Today is Saturn's day, where I embrace the tin foil hat.