""Consider laughter: it is the highest emotion, for it can contain any of the others from ecstacy to grief. It has no opposite. Crying is merely an undeveloped form of it which cleanses the eyes and summons assistance to infants. Laughter is the only tenable attitude in a universe which is a joke played upon itself." - Peter Carroll, Liber Null
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Laughter yoga.
Dream journal picking up.
Terminal Man by Crichton. Wandering the Waste.
My Brother Emerson (center) competing in the US Army Best Squad competition this year.
I am taking a refresher course in hypnosis at the Past Life Awakening Institute. Mark Beale's course in S.R.T. was so good that I found myself looking into more courses offered by him. I am also taking an introduction course in the Freedom Model of recovery for consulting clients in the future with addiction issues. 12 step programs are cults and I found myself in the midst of one of them for several years. Eventually I left to pursue my own path and felt a lot better than when I was in the groups.
Cults. Freedom of Mind by Steve Hassan is a good primer. He has an online course also. Got my TOPY Grey Book back. Speaking of cults.
I read The John Lear Chronicles Volume One. It was a good Saturn's-day read.
Build the pyre Assemble different drummers Light up the fire Put on your masks And animal skins Illumination, illumination Listen to the drums Between each beat, each beat of the drum
O beloved mother of liberty Hold me in your arms
Burn burn, burn brightly Burn burn, burn white heat
And the day will come Before the lights go out Who will you turn to Who will you turn to Choose the crucifixion Or Osiris slain Recurring themes, time again
Oh how ingenious the centuries of lies Ezekiel's chariots streak across the skies Holy books and history texts forget Because we know Souls are recycled in the death and resurrection show
O beloved mother of liberty Come to me
Everything I'm taught, amounts to nought Everything I learn, the fire shall burn Notions of myself that I'm not Who ever I was is now lost
Oh how ingenious the centuries of lies Ezekiel's chariots streak across the skies Holy books and history texts forget Because we know Souls are recycled in the death and resurrection show
O beloved mother of liberty Come to me
Burn away all my impurities Hold me in your arms
Burn burn, burn brightly
Burn burn, burn white heat"
I just completed a course in Modern Demonology from paralearning.org It provided useful guidance on the subject and even covered summoning (invocation). Instrumental Trans-communication, or ITC caught my interest and I want to know more about it.
The Spirit Releasement Therapy course taught by Mark Beale on udemy presents way more material than the books I came across. Highly recommended. The majority of people I know believe the dead remain silent. Maybe the subtle contact comes through in various ways, often discounted or denied. For me Death represents a great cultural myth that many people unknowingly subscribe to. Take the mourning of a loved one that takes the form of desperation or permanence. Christians often grieve like this and then add that God took them as His Will. I meet Buddhists who also grieve like this and imagine a Pureland Heaven where they will reunite.
"Brain research supports the existence of at least seven primary-process (basic) emotional systems - SEEKING, RAGE, FEAR, LUST, CARE, GRIEF (formerly PANIC), and PLAY - concentrated in ancient subcortical regions of all mammalian brains."
Grief appears as a valid emotion. Most people struck with the loss of a loved one in the United States, lack a grieving ritual or process. Communication with the dead, holding vigils, and other methods for grieving grow towards attitudes beyond the secular. More and more people are going this direction and feel loss acutely for a prolonged period. Extended suffering and ignorance of the process of dying often leads to feelings of shame or guilt. A vicious cycle of living and definitely not satisfactory for my way of life.
The Hebrew legend states five parts of the soul. Two of which we cannot apprehend. The remaining three get explained in this letter from a Rabbi:
"Dear Eliezer Shifrin,
A soul is like a chain with one end linked into the brain and the other to a certain spiritual source. There are five levels of the soul like the five links in a chain, each one parallel to the spiritual sphere where it exists. However, we only relate to the three bottom links as we have no understanding about the two top ones. The three are 1) Nefesh 2) Ruach 3) Neshama. The nefesh is the spiritual existence which resides in the body and keeps the physical metabolism working and the person alive. The ruach is a connection between the neshama and the nefesh. It is the cause of feelings and personal qualities. The neshama is the spiritual existence which pulls the man towards G-d, to the performance of good deeds, to be pious and humble and to seek knowledge and achievement in spiritual fields. It resides around the head.
When a person dies, it takes seven days before the parts of the soul understand that it's all over and leave the body. Until then they hover around the grave and travel to and fro between the grave and the house of the deceased, waiting for the body to start functioning again. Thenefesh does not completely leave until the body is decomposed."
Consider that the nefesh remains as long as the bones reside in your coffin before getting buried. Crowley got cremated. Speculation regarding his reasoning remains. Bones turn to dust also. This Rabbi states it takes seven days, but others say six weeks. During this period there exist activities one performs to honor and process death. Compare that to the average secular American and you get the picture. God is Dead as proclaimed meant so are you. People believe this. Smells like a vast conspiracy to create more earthbound spirits after death.
After reading about possession and spirits from Doctors and other professionals on the fringe, I came into contact with a different perspective. Earthbound spirits of the human dead, dark force entities, and extraterrestrials name some of the presences detected by these people. People at the whims of hungry ghosts and malevolent entities sounds like a cop out of responsibility to many. Gurdjieff said the majority of us remain robots and "food for the moon". Barely cognizant and filled with many "I"s.
Red hand takes a purple terror Love knows these nuts When we escape from the madhouse We will... hunt down
Tonight we murder Between the battle of pain and hate We will wait, but not for our time We'll for hate and to take To deep... throat
Tonight Tonight we murder
Between the pain, the battle of pain Love never ties knots A twisted plan of fear and hate We'll never untie these nuts
Tonight we murder I murder
Tonight we murder"
There exist tools for consciousness change. Some look more effective than others. Some require seeking a Professional and others need self direction. So things appear at this present time. I utilize a combination of both with some underlying stipulations.
People mood alter from a very young age, with breathing, crying, and even spinning until they become dizzy. Mood altering devices consist of many thing, including: exercise, meditation and praying, television, internet browsing, food (dieting and binging), etc. To be at odds with mood alteration doesn't fall in line with my philosophy.
After practicing Liber Nu and Liber Had, I came to an understanding with these passages. I once,many years back, complained about my vices to a Chaos Magickian and He replied, "Guilt-Gnosis". It pierced my characted armor, leaving a scar on my psyche. According to LuSiD9, on a chat board, "'chemognosis' is basicaly the use of chemicals (usualy psychoactive) for the purpose of bending reality to cause change according to will (or at least an aid)"
I like the way that was put.
There exists The Apollonian and the Dionysian according to Nietzsche.
"The death of one is a tragedy
The death of one is a tragedy The death of one is a tragedy
The death of millions is just a statistic" As sung by Marilyn Manson quoting Stalin.
"Schopenhauer recommends a limiting of desire and resignation from life. While Nietzsche recommends an artistic response to the tragedy of life." You can choose to live your own tragedy with all the details of what things exist like for a human being. While the Gods play.
Nietzsche further more declares the Slave Morality and the Master Morality. People tell children they can grow up an exist as they will, yet simultaneously attributing labels to their behavior. It has even become common for the parents to impose these limitations on themselves/This kind of script serves a self fullfilling prophecy.
"Know Thyself. These words were inscribed above the entrance to the temple of Apollo at Delphi, site of the sacred oracle."
"Hi, I relate to the enneagram number Five." Diagnosing yourself is an option. It still remains conditional. In hypnosis this type of labeling ususually implies scripting. If you go to a Professional, you play the role of client,mentally disturbed, patient, or other. Master/Slave morality at play.
"you can't think your way into better acting, you have to act your way into better thinking."
American Board of Hypnotherapy number: "H15107"
Arkham Asylum.
Taking a course on Spirit Release Therapy. This is imparting training on how to effectively deal with entities. So far it explains things in depth and feels satisfying.
I decided on using Bill Finch's pendulum chart for work. His book stands as an excellent primer on the practice of pendulum work and possession.
I utilize the Stanislavski Method for my current Liber Astarte project. I got a copy of The Complete Stanislavsky Toolkit to help me with the process.
Reichian Therapy and Orgonomy still interests me. Reichian Therapy for Home Use By Dr. Jack Willis gives details on therapy techniques that I will use. Dr. Hyatt approves. Israel Regardie wrote an interesting book on the subject as well.
The Remote Viewing project remains at a stand still. I need to get a player for the audio file and other files I intend on using.
Satan-Fire-The King
Lucifer-Air-The Warrior
Leviathan-Water-The Magickian
Belial-Earth-The Lover
Names taken from The Book of Abramelin The Mage.
This book helped me plan some effective time management. It contains some useful exercises and great points on attaining a level of efficiency for professional or personal use. I first discovered the four hour concept from the Wobblies and found it an interesting proposition.
Morphic fields draw me to Palo Mayombe and the Runes. So far I found this book and the UTHARK theory of Sigurd Agrell.
